Happy end of Week 3.
I want to start by saying that if you are questioning your commitment to this process OR if you are feeling like you are behind : please remember that we have two extra weeks built in! We WILL be taking them. So you actually aren’t behind, and you can’t use that excuse anymore :)
Just a little rephrase : Even if you started from page one of the book today, even if you have not written a single morning page, you would still only be a week behind by Feb 14th when we are finishing up. Make each week a ‘six day week’ and you will be right with the group in a few weeks.
That being said : I went from feeling super jazzed and eager to do the work required of me to less-than-enthused this week. I felt that almost winter fatigue, I wondered many times if I even had the energy to do my laundry, morning pages were a slog.
I did really enjoy the part of Chapter 3 on both anger and synchronicity. It just feels really good to fully allow the belief that there are “a thousand unseen helping hands” wash over me.
The part on shame was a bit more personal. Shame is a dear friend of mine. This section had me revisiting second grade Nicole who auditioned for a creative arts school but was waitlisted, middle school Nicole who did not make the play, high school Nicole who wanted to go to fashion design school but didn’t have the right portfolio. My Mom is a professional artist, as is my brother. Since young adulthood I’ve felt like I missed out on the gene, but for the first time…. maybe ever… I realize that I’ve been an artist all along. Just a shadow one.
I wonder how you all are doing daily. I love seeing the check ins. I am curious about how you took the “art requires a safe hatchery” advice. Have you exposed your art to ‘useless criticism’ and you are just realizing it? What has happened synchronistically since you’ve started this book study?
